You find out who your real friends are...

Something Id just like to "rant" about for a second, before I actually go to bed at this 3:30 am hour......

What the hell happened between us. Im not going to name any names, but I use to have this friend who I was EXTREMELY close with just recently tell me they didnt want to be friends any longer. For no aparent reason. We use to be really close, I considered him like a brother to me. He helped me through a lot of crap, and now, I go to talk to him, find out hes not on my facebook anymore, text him, no response, and then when he does finally answer, he doesnt even recognize my number anymore (meaning he deleted it) and then proceeds to ask me why the hell am I trying to talk to him? I dont understand!! I didnt do anything to him and the only reason he came up with was "because I have a girlfriend and i dont want to fuck that up"...which ok, understandable, but im not out there to screw up anything you have with anybody. I have a boyfriend, not like I defriended you, especially after what wed all been through in the past. He then preceeded to tell me to get out of his life, he no longer wanted to be friends with me and had no need to keep me in his life. I really dont understand....I really dont. Im not letting it get to me, because if thats how this person is going to be, so be it....but why me? Why did he stay friends with all my other friends but chose to kick me out of his life. I dont know what I did to deserve him doing this to me....I wish hed tell me so I at least had a clue...but he wont, hes being stupid. Im waiting for the day when he comes back telling me hes sorry, which sure whatever, but dont treat me like this when I did NOTHING wrong to you....I was never anything but geniune to you...and if its a crime that I miss you as a friend, then sue me....but whatever. Im leaving it alone. I dont need this in my life and I sure as hell dont want to deal with his stupid drama if this is how hes gunna be.

With all that said, I guess I would just like to thank all my real "friends" for sticking by me through thick and thin. You guys do mean a lot to me, even though right now im not fond of certain ones who told me theyd show up no matter what to the musical I was in, but then when the time came they decided to be MIA.....thanks guys, im glad I mean so much to you. But besides those people, thank you to those who did come and support us...or me in this case. Means a lot. I wanna thank my amazing boyfriend for one who came down from Milwaukee to see the musical. That by far meant the world to me. I love having that support because Ive never truely had it before. I love being a performer, and it makes the experience so much more rewarding when you know people in the audience so that you can perform your best for them and showcase your talents.

Anyways, Im done with this for tonight. I should go to bed.