...Cuz Its not like you to walk away in the middle of a song

"Why"-Rascal Flatts
It must have been a place so dark
You couldnt feel the light
Reaching for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little home town
This cant be the way you meant to draw a crowd

Oh why, thats what I keep asking
Was there anything i could have said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul
God only knows what went wrong and whyy youd leave the stage in the middle of a song

Now in my mind ill keep you frozen as a 17 year old
Rounding third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage you shined just like the sun

Oh why thats what I keep asking
Was there anything I could have said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul
Oh God only knows what went wrong and why you would leave the stage in the middle of a song

Now the oak trees are swaying in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
Tangled thoughts i hear a mocking bird sing this old world really aint that bad a place

Oh why theres no comprehending and who am i to try judge or explain
But I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasnt worth the fight
They were wrong
They lied
Now your gone and we cry
Its just not like you to walk away in the middle of a song
Your beautiful song
Your absolutely beautiful song



As you read through the lyrics you might ask why Im posting this....Let me tell you a bit of a story.
We all know how much of a huge Rascal Flatts fan I am...well when their new CD "Unstoppable" came out, my roommate at the time went out and bought it, and I spent the entire day listening and analyzing the songs, like I do with every new CD I get.....I got to the last song, and was listening to it wondering Ok, what is this song even about, I dont get it.....but yet I was highly drawn to it.....it got to the chorus and still not understanding I almost turned the song...but it got to the part of "cuz its not like you to leave the stage in the middle of a song"....and I immediatley broke down. The song was about suicide.....now, let me back up....litterly, just the night before I had had the worst breaking point of my entire life. I dont want to get into details because honestly its way too hard on me to even talk about....but I contimplated suicide....almost actually going through with it. So hearing this song litterly the day after was like God was speaking to me in some weird round about way. So if you wonder why Ive always been a die hard Rascal Flatts fan, this my friends....is why...

So after hearing this song, it gave me inspiration to make my own video...dealing with what I went through, letting people know its ok, letting people know there are other people out there dealing with the same stuff, etc. It was not a mockary in me trying to reach out for help at this point, and it was no way mean to offend anyone...I honestly was only going to show my close family and friends the video but thought maybe this video would serve more of a purpose...little did I know, only a few months later the video would reach almost 30,000 views on youtube.....I litterly, TO THIS DAY, get at least 5 emails a week with people telling me their stories and asking me to help with their depression......and the most rewarding part of it all, is the people who have actually wrote to me telling me my video actually helped them overcome attempting suicide. I never in a million years thought I could touch someone like that......

Rascal Flatts, heres to you. I adore you. Youve helped me and numorous people through so much that youd never imagine.....I owe you everything for me being here today. Thank you.

With all that said....here is the video I made that I was telling you about
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dje_M15hVZE


And here is the video that led me into writing this blog and telling you all my story. This was posted by Rascal Flatts on their Twitter today. Enjoy
http://www.ilike.com/artist/Rascal%20Flatts/videos/595884618



Please, do me a favor...Ive said this before and Ill say it again....If any...ANY...of you need someone to talk to, please do NOT..i repeat, do NOTTT be afraid to talk to me. Ive been in your shoes, I know the feelings and I understand the pain.....my email is always open to anyone who needs to vent, needs advise, needs a way out.....please, LET ME HELP YOU....I am here and always will be. I love you all. Thank you.